Late last year, I began to feel unrest in my spirit. I tried to discern what it was, and why I was feeling that way. Amidst my joy and low moments, I would hear clearly in my spirit to “let go.” I wasn’t fighting anything or anyone, I thought, so what was there to let go of? I remember specifically praying one evening in the kitchen for God to help me git rid of what no longer serves me and I wrote it down.
The holiday came and passed like a soft wind on a hot summer afternoon, leaving me with desire for more; yet my heart was still and so loud I could hear my own thoughts. However, in between reading, enjoying intimate moments with my partner, and preparing for the New Year’s goal; there was still that voice resounding in my spirit, making me restive. I knew I didn’t want to begin the year with uncertainty and a cluttered mind. It was in that dim hour it struck me, that perhaps my spirit was gearing towards the change that it needed. I like to call it a detox. And when I heard of the 21 days fast in church, it confirmed my intention, so I decided to integrate it in. It was a very intense but fulfilling time for me, as I felt energised day after day. Here are some of the benefits I enjoyed during this period:
– UNPLUG: staying away completely from social media, T.V, and unnecessary social gathering, made it worthwhile to appreciate the things and people around me. My mantra-“Everything important can wait and I cannot receive what I am not prepared for.” However, there was no rush or fear of missing out (FOMO) because I was using my time wisely. – GRATITUDE: Apart from my daily journal, I strictly kept a “gratitude journal.” Reading it at the end of the day, reminded me to value life; for out it, unlocks the fullness of joy that springs forth. You begin to see the abundance in what you have. – STRENGTH: I learned to acknowledge how powerful the mind/spirit is and how far it can lead one to renew itself, only if we care to listen to our inner-self.Then can the body be strengthened too. A renewed mind= a renewed body. – CLARITY: infusing meditation as part of my morning & night ritual has brought me closer to God and helped my mind stay sharper on my goals. I wouldn’t say that I know exactly all that my future entails, but I can say I have clarity on certain aspects of it; hoping to walk in the right direction that will lead to my purpose. -LEARNING: One thing I absolutely love to do is to read, but this time I didn’t out of habit, but with a mindset to learn something new. A book that particularly helped me stay focus was “Battlefield of the mind” by Joyce Meyer. I am learning to be intentional with my thoughts even before my actions.
Renewed, Refreshed, Replenished. You see, prior to my detox, a relationship very dear to me had ended. It only brought me back to questioning my character and values in life (which was good). But it all became clear now. To grow; change is needed, and to gain; we have to experience some shedding; be it relationships or habits. There is time for everything. So I say whatever you’re experiencing that seems like you’re going through a ‘wilderness’ is preparing you and making space to welcome new things. Embrace the process, learn from it and most especially enjoy every bit of it. Your ‘refined’ days are near!
Thanks for stopping by. Wishing you guys an amazing month and year!
Love, Happyblacky Xoxo